I had some weird evening ennui yesterday. I can’t even figure out why! I just felt down and irritated and honestly, there was literally no objective reason.
(I mean: it was objectively bad that a kid spilled half a carton of milk on the just-washed kitchen floor — but I was having these feelings after I had already cleaned it up with some assistance from said kid.)
I think maybe . . . I just felt frustrated that our evening routine still often feels like pulling teeth and contains more yelling (both from me AND the kids AND Josh if he is home) than I would like? ORRRR maybe it was the migraine (probably running AND hormonal) that hit me as soon as work was over, though (thankfully) my rescue med worked very well, as it typically does?
A N Y W A Y. I ended up doing some aimless sort-of travel planning and some random screen stuff and it just felt like a waste of an evening.
Today has been mostly better. And I am grateful that I almost always wake up in a better mood!
D – I – T – L for Weds:
4:30 up, read, plan, Headspace
5:40 run with group! I was worried about predicted storms but headed out to clear skies so I’m so glad I went. ~6.6 mi most of it with ~6+ others (Weds group is bigger than Mon though has many of the same members!). If you follow me on strava you can see a pic 🙂
6:45 bfast / kids / shower
7:40 drive kids to school –> commute to work
8:30 pts + notes + results
12:00 eat lunch (in office), deal with some future work scheduling stuff that got me a bit riled up (all good though), write a blog post
1:10 pts. Worked with a (lovely) resident. Did a lot of listening. Not the easiest pt lineup, but we made it.
5:00 last pt done and migraine has started. Pick up RX from hospital pharmacy (convenient!)
5:10 drive home, stop at library on way to pick up holds x 2. Stop home to put my stuff away and change.
6:00 pick up A from art
6:30 dinner with A (other kids had eaten). Kids on various screens. I was stewing / feeling negative. Josh arrives home shortly thereafter
7:40 Josh went out running (which is fair since I have basically taken the entire AM running time slot – I am very glad he does not mind running at night since I would hate it). I start putting kids to bed – later than I wanted to. (aforementioned milk spill happened around 8 pm.)
8:45 kids in bed; I was in a MOOD and scrolled instead of reading or watching Bad Sisters which is just . . . well, from today’s vantage point, I honestly don’t get it!
9:40 sleep – (note: I set my AM alarm for 4:45 because I consider 7 hrs my minimum).
Things I will try to remember to do next time instead of scroll: