I am not the type of person who loses track of time, but let’s just say March DID NOT FEEL like I expected it to feel.
What I saw, heading into the month: Little fun trip, lots of routine weeks with normal clinical days and no call
What I thought about that: I’ll have lots of time to move forward on some of the bigger projects I’ve been pushing off! It will be a really fun and productive month where I can really settle into 2026 routines and also move some fun things forward. This look like a pleasant and normal-looking month.
What happened: OMG. I got hit by a semi truck of #MOOD. I had PMS (duh), but it just never really ended. I really didn’t do well (mentally) with my one-year diagnosis anniversary. The world news became terrifying, and I mostly just stopped processing it (absolutely a privilege, I know that). I watched many episodes of Euphoria, which is a great show AND an absolute downer. I cried, many times, and often for no real identifiable reason.
And then the month kind of just . . .ran its course. Somehow, we got to this point where it feels like there’s some closure on the horizon. Now, I recognize March is NOT ACTUALLY OVER; we’ve got almost a whole week left when it comes to the actual dates! But I feel like this weekend (with our spring break travels/vac!) will usher in the Official Transition Phase of Q2, and therefore this week does feel a bit like an ending, albeit a rather unsatisfying one.
This is not the official March recap (and I do think that perhaps I’ll feel objectively better about the month once I really look at what went down), but I’m just processing what a challenge the last few weeks have been.
I’m not going to recap my failures (in this post, anyway) but I did enjoy spending some time last month writing out the things I was looking forward to in March. (Note: despite my rant above, I have to say that ALL of the things mentioned in that post slated to happen did happen, other than Tiffany missing her part of the 80s concert! So, positive memories were made between crying jags).
LOOKING AHEAD: APRIL
First up (end of March) is Disney with my sister and niece added to the usual crew! I think this will be really fun. I plan to just succumb (let’s face it, I already let my wallet succumb . . .) to the Disney magic.
Naples beach weekend with two families (A’s friends) — we’ll also celebrate A’s birthday!
A’s state gym meet in Gainesville –> we just got her time slot and it’s pretty ideal, no missed work/school and we can go as a family.
One call week (but not the weekend because I covered someone else’s weekend in January! YAY)
A cappella reunion trip in Williamstown. Umm, this was a slightly crazy decision I made but as of now I’m psyched!
Peds Endo meeting in San Francisco at the end of the month. (SIDE NOTE – if you live in the SF area and are interested in joining me for a casual meetup on Saturday evening 5/2, please email me and I can give you details!).
Various social things: work picnic, school ‘parent’s night out’, Starbucks date with a certain local blogger 🙂
Lest anyone think that one normal weekend snuck in there, Josh has his marathon (!) so I’ll have the kids solo for a few days. (He’ll be doing the same for me multiple times, so I am glad he’s getting some friend time in!).
There’s also Passover and multiple birthdays to celebrate (A, plus Josh’s mom).
AND: Season 3 of Euphoria is coming out.
Feeling: Simultaneously sad and grateful and excited and hopeful. I guess that’s just life.
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Sorry to hear that you had a low mood month. You still did a lot which is admirable not to cancel anything because you were not feeling it. Sometimes we need to carry on no matter what and eventually the bad mood goes away without notice. April is looking fun!
yeah, plenty happened! Just didn’t feel all that great. I AM glad I didn’t cancel things; that would have made things worse. Onward and upward to April!
Thanks for the reminder to plan some fun things. Im on call this Saturday night but was thinking of going to a local metro park to look at the birds and then get chipotle since my family is out of town and I’m the only one who likes it. Husband has swimming nationals. We have a bunch of dog agility and I’m going to get to run the dogs again since Dylan is going to the state finals for “invention convention” that day. We’re having Easter with friends. Need to think of some other activities…
is your husband competing nationals or watching? either way super cool! a little solo time sounds like it will be good!
Yeah he is competing in open water nationals in Sarasota this April. He’s currently nationally ranked in the top 20 in the 1500 in his age group. I guess we’ll see how he does in a lake! Last year he swam a 10k for funsies.
That is SO COOL!!! So exciting. (Which means i “know” two elite masters swimmer between him + Lagliv’s husband!)
He says that he is not a Fike level swimmer in any way but thank you. Fike just was featured in some swimming magazine with his son or something. My husband (by contrast) picks the 1000 meter free (short course) because nobody else swims it, and uses that sort of strategy to improve his ranking. Still, he wants you to know that *currently* he is ranked 3rd in the nation in the 1500 free, even though it’s still early in the year and he expects many people to overtake him. Haha.
well to ME, they might as well both be olympians. (and hey nothing wrong with a little strategizing, lol). Tell him CONGRATS on #3!!!!!
I appreciate your honesty! I had bad PMS this month as well. Onward and upward to April!
Yeah- March is over??? This was the fastest month ever. You have a lot of fun things planned for April. I think a lot of your mood issues are probably hormonal, and you can’t just talk yourself out of that kind of funk. But it’s good to have things to look forward to! Onward!
So glad to see this post! Still sending hugs and peaceful vibes. Hope you can enjoy all of your fun April plans – I know how hard it can be when you have so much on your mind.
Wow, April is jam-packed for you! I think that month will fly by even faster but hopefully be less angsty. March has been busy for me with 2 work trips and the spring break trip to DC right on the tail of this last work trip (got back from Detroit last night, fly to DC tomorrow morning). But I’m looking forward to the time away. The weather isn’t as nice as I was hoping but it will still be wonderful!