What Goes Up (?)

We had a lovely Memorial Day (the vegan strawberry shortcake was a hit) with Josh’s dad plus sister + fam. And then I guess I had a . . . comedown of sorts.

I feel like May ALWAYS does this to me. It looks soooo good on paper! So many celebrations, and often a trip to look forward to since Josh and I often go away together around our anniversary.

And then somehow it’s all too much and I end up feeling kind of empty and sad. It was the kind of day yesterday that made me want to more proactively deal with my PMDD (I’m ready to try some more things). But I also wonder if it’s just a natural reaction to a ton of action: an equal and opposite mood reaction?

It’s a weird time. I’m still processing our family’s loss and even though of course it is even harder for Josh and his immediate family, it’s still impactful. Family gatherings are still wonderful (and to be cherished) and they are also tinged with sadness.

I also . . . decided to totally abandon any thought of following the Emma Montgomery Shred macros. They were super restrictive and made me sad (plus were totally unsustainable and I think just . . . not necessary for my goals). I am still doing the workouts though, which I do like (and plan to transition to her regular Empowered workout plan for a bit after these are done with).

I am making another attempt at time tracking and focusing on staying busy AND ALSO getting enough sleep. Let’s just say that going to the Weird Al concert on Tuesday night WAS NOT what I was in the mood for. But Josh really did love it (we went for him; there have definitely been concerts in the past that were more for me!).

Even in my #mood I managed to laugh at some of this concert and I have to admit Amish Paradise is still pretty hilarious.