Thank you all so much for your kind words, suggestions, commiseration, and support these past few weeks. I feel so, so, so much better. The shift was fairly sudden; I spent Black Friday indulging in an incredibly lazy afternoon (my parents were here entertaining the kids). I read a novel and rested and napped and by Saturday morning, nearly a monthlong fog felt like it had been lifted.
And now I am excited about things again! I feel like me again! And I like my life again. The feelings of pointlessness and apathy that hung around for most of November have evaporated. I don’t know exactly what helped me shake them off, but I am so happy they are gone.
Maybe it’s the synthetic estrogen/progesterone combination I’m taking each morning (I started ~8 days ago). Maybe it was just taking a break from work (which is what Josh kept saying, but I don’t think it’s the entire story). Maybe it’s meditation — though I doubt it; I’ve only done 5 days. Or therapy, though I only went twice.
On Saturday, having felt like I was emerging from a hole, everything felt great. I enjoyed my long run. I especially enjoyed coming home to pumpkin pancakes.
My parents have been enjoying a lot of time with A / C / G. The visit has been nice, and I think they have enjoyed it (they head back Weds).
I was previously filled with dread about the holidays and now dare I say I’m not minding the idea of some more time off and a few parties. (This is literally a 180 from my mindset just a few days ago). ALSO: 2020 Hobonichi is getting broken in this week! I am ready.
Half Training Report 11.25 – 12.1 (week #7):
M – cool AM run, 8:58/mi (I was cold so ran faster I guess)
T – 21DF Dirty 30, 8 + 12 lb weights
W – Intervals in the afternoon – it was hot and I was tired. 10:00/mi average, 8 x 1 min @ approx 5K pace
R – nothing really – 1 mi jog while kids rode bikes!
F – rest (day of truly lying around)
S – 10 mi long run. 9:44/mi average. Felt great.
S – BB 21 DF Upper (8 + 12 lb weights). Pushups 17 up / 6 down, 12 up / 6 down. Felt hard!
Meals this Week:
M – Fartlek Chili (Run Fast Eat Slow) + sweet potato chips
T – out with my parents to celebrate their (45th) anniversary + (HOPEFULLY) closing on our (old) house
W – chicken thighs with white beans, pancetta & baby kale (from Dinner Illustrated)
R – leftovers
F – chickpea & kale soup (Dinner Illustrated) w/ bread
S – date night
S – Josh & Cameron go to heat game; something low key for me / A / G (maybe breakfast – for – dinner)