Yeah. Right on schedule – it’s the end of the month and I’m spiraling a little. I wrote out a whole bunch of complaints but just deleted them because it just reeked of overly privileged person whining about how hard things are. And really things are okay. They are fine. One day at a time. It is better to practice gratitude for what we do have than complain about things all day. Going to try to work on being positive today.
I wonder if I would be feeling burned out anyway this time of year. At least we didn’t have to attend 5837438 year end activities!
Also (probably contributing to #mood), I ended up getting my antibodies tested. I know, I feel like a hypocrite based on what I had written previously, but I decided that even imperfect test results might garner some useful info especially if negative. The thing is — I was sort of internally convinced we all had it in March (based on symptoms + timing). I felt like maybe some of my risk calculations were based on this idea and therefore felt the info could be useful.
Alas, the findings did not support my little theory that we already got through it. (From what I have read, Quest’s test is 90% sensitive so . . . not perfect, but not terrible either.)
Oh well. Not sure this will change my behavior but I guess it’s perhaps useful to know.
PS: Thank you for the overall respectful vibe of the comments in yesterday’s post – both those that agreed and those that had good counterpoints and other things to consider. I truly appreciate the respectful tone of the commenters here even when opinions might differ! THANK YOU.