Yeah. Right on schedule – it’s the end of the month and I’m spiraling a little. I wrote out a whole bunch of complaints but just deleted them because it just reeked of overly privileged person whining about how hard things are. And really things are okay. They are fine. One day at a time. It is better to practice gratitude for what we do have than complain about things all day. Going to try to work on being positive today.
I wonder if I would be feeling burned out anyway this time of year. At least we didn’t have to attend 5837438 year end activities!
Also (probably contributing to #mood), I ended up getting my antibodies tested. I know, I feel like a hypocrite based on what I had written previously, but I decided that even imperfect test results might garner some useful info especially if negative. The thing is — I was sort of internally convinced we all had it in March (based on symptoms + timing). I felt like maybe some of my risk calculations were based on this idea and therefore felt the info could be useful.
Alas, the findings did not support my little theory that we already got through it. (From what I have read, Quest’s test is 90% sensitive so . . . not perfect, but not terrible either.)
Oh well. Not sure this will change my behavior but I guess it’s perhaps useful to know.
PS: Thank you for the overall respectful vibe of the comments in yesterday’s post – both those that agreed and those that had good counterpoints and other things to consider. I truly appreciate the respectful tone of the commenters here even when opinions might differ! THANK YOU.
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I’m not sure what is more exhausting – the long days at home or the year end activities we are getting out of this year! Lol!
What is it about the end of the month that gets you? For me it’s trying to get my billable hours in (I’m a lawyer). I like reading your complaints posts as they help me feel less alone.
It’s completely arbitrary! I think I get tired of my own goals 😂
Funny – but I understand! I’ve been working on some very long term goals (making partner and getting myself totally organized/decluttered). I can definitely see progress but sometimes I get bored.
I love your complaint posts…!
I know we need to see the positive in life, but sometimes we need to acknowledge that things are frustrating or worrying and naming them gives validity and helps us move on?
I’m an introvert and have loved the reduced social demands. That said, the home life with two kiddos (no childcare) is just exhausting!
I am there with you on burnout as i sit in a zoom meeting and thinking that a few days off might help. One of my co-workers had the term ‘perpetual present’ to describe our current state of being only able to deal with today (or the next week or so) and not plan for the future.
And i agree about yesterday’s posts. So wonderful to see thoughtful posts when we know it’s a fraught topic.
Ugh I’m with you. I’m not sure the “fresh month” will help this time. 4 day weekend didn’t help, either. I think I need to rethink my schedule and focus on energy-boosting things, because I’m SO TIRED all the time these days.
YES TIRED!!!!!!!!!!
Totally agree. I reached the point yesterday, really for the first time, when I was just done done DONE – mostly with being stuck in the house with my kids. I think the weather isn’t helping – after a nice reprieve, Florida is launching summer for real – rainy, hot, and humid – it stormed most of the day yesterday and the “real feel” was 99 this afternoon, so there haven’t been nice walks or bike rides to get out and break things up a bit.
Thank you for writing every day through this period. I am certain that hasn’t been easy. But it has been a very lovely and helpful positive gift to I am certain way more than just me. You are such a morale booster and help. Thank you.
That’s good to know about Quest! My doctor ran it on me and I am waiting to find out. I kind of want to have had it and be over it but we don’t even know about that immunity and…. I think this time of year and especially all the things this week just get to us.