Just feeling kind of down.
I feel like we hit such a lovely high point this summer. A point where it felt like — in this country, specifically — the pandemic was largely behind us. When we traveled to Hawk’s Cay, it felt almost normal. Case rates at that time were low and falling.
I still do not have a lot of fear about becoming ill with COVID — for myself, Josh, or the kids. Because the vaccines appear to still be working. At least for now. And kids — especially young + healthy ones — just generally do not too terribly sick with COVID most of the time.
(Yes, some children do get sick from COVID. A very few die. MIS-C and blood clots are real complications and they can be devastating. But they are not common ones. I also have the perspective of seeing how many children get sick with other things: leukemia. drowning. meningitis. Yet I spend zero hours worrying about these things. Actually, that’s not true; I do sometimes worry about drowning, and cannot wait for G’s swimming skills to improve. It is a scary and real risk too – probably higher than COVID.)
((Yes, I am sure I am influenced by the kids’ previous COVID infection, which was an uneventful as it gets as all 3 were entirely asymptomatic. I recognize that is NOT everyone’s experience, but it was ours, and I am sure it does influence my own thought processes/risk assessment.))
I’ve actually been frustrated by sensationalized headlines maximizing risks (CNN recently had an article that stated outright “1/3 of infected children get long COVID” with no clear citation!). This recent Nature news article summarizes recent findings and my takeaway is that while there are certainly unknowns, 1/3 is likely a significant overestimate.
I also continue to feel that months upon months of altered living has consequences. As I’ve mentioned, we’ve seen a huge spike in overt type 2 diabetes in teens and there is a mental health crisis. These risks are real too, even though they may not be the salient ones in line with all of the headlines.
ALL THAT SAID, clearly COVID numbers are skyrocketing in many areas, including mine, and it sucks.
I am tired of my program director job feeling like it is 50% about COVID mitigation.
I am tired of early morning meetings that focus on COVID policies.
I am sad that I have to think twice about any social invitation.
I am sad that there are hordes of people in this country that are expressing “vaccine hostility” — I found this article shocking.
All that said, today is another day and I will find things to be grateful about. Here are 3!
1- I get to work with a great resident who is excited to learn! (AND – I’m not on night call!!)
2- My close friend is due with baby #3 tomorrow and one of my college BFFs just had a healthy delivery (#2)!!! Bring on the baby pix!
3- Our family trip is just 2 weeks away and it’s largely COVID-proof – we rented a VRBO by the beach near Amelia Island. We are driving up. We can avoid restaurants and crowded areas entirely if we want and still have a week of family fun together, away from work. And I have high hopes that G will sleep better than the last time we traveled there!