Well, I guess March is almost over. This month (for me) contained multitudes.
I was motivated, happy, sluggish, and sad. I did not read a single book from start to finish (I am 3/4 of the way through two books and finished a book on 3/2, but that doesn’t really count). I heard about a half-dozen excellent new TV shows and watched none of them.
I got to travel with Laura!
I started therapy and coaching. I did (and am still doing) a lot of deep thinking about what I want out of life.
I quit every single extracurricular work committee – to the point where our health system CMO emailed me to see if I was okay (nice gesture).
I survived screen-free parenting, though it definitely wasn’t always that much fun for me. Josh was either on call or away (snowboarding with C!) 3/4 weekends.
I had very high clinical volumes (record-breaking RVUs when adjusted for my FTEs) because we are so busy as a division. Thankfully we have a new doctor coming on in May and another 0.5FTE in August, so it does feel like help is on the way.
I scheduled our move and the end of our rental contract, filled out myriad camp forms, and cringed watching our emergency fund shrink and shrink in YNAB. (Josh handled scheduling our floor situation and the roof/insurance issues that have been incredibly annoying and hard to solve).
I closed my Apple Watch activity rings 21/31 days. I completed 11 strength workouts (finishing Total Strength with Andy) and 12 runs.
I got really interrupted sleep. (G has gotten me up the past 3 nights due to various issues and needing to go to the bathroom, and I have struggled to fall back asleep every time.)
I had at least 2 migraines that messed up 3-day stretches.
Looking at the above, there are certainly clues to why I feel tired. I hope I can snap out of whatever it is that is bothering me. I’d say I am ready for April but I think it’s going to be another challenging month (A move. A call week. Some of that overlapping . . .). Maybe the new month energy will last and carry me through longer than it did in March..
Meanwhile, this is happening:
Trying to hang on to the bits of joy even as other things feel hard.