News and feelings and things
Thinking about what is going on in Israel with a heavy heart and thinking of everyone impacted. In South FL, a lot of my friends/colleagues have close ties to the country and it has to be so incredibly hard to watch and hear about from so far away.
It’s such an odd feeling when such devastation is occurring and yet the mundane details of your life just . . . continue as usual. I guess it was similar when COVID was first hitting in other places (like Italy) and yet everything was still normal here. It does make me truly appreciate and feel grateful for normal. Truly, one never knows when and how things will change and life can be upended in an instant. I really hope things improve quickly.
We had a really nice weekend. We didn’t do anything earth-shattering, but were definitely busy enough for a Josh-call weekend. The kids got flu shots, we hit the library, C played a soccer game, kids had piano/gymnastics, AND C had a friend over. I spent 2 hrs picking up the house on Sunday afternoon (while his friend was here + kids had screen time) but I did it while listening to podcasts so it was honestly kind of pleasant and satisfying. I even got the trash out of my CAR!! The only thing we didn’t fit in was a visit to the Halloween store. Ahh well. We have a couple of weeks.
So yes. Weird juxtaposition between normal life and very sad and terrible things going on across the globe. Just trying to stick to listen to my daily news source (Up First), support those who need it, but otherwise stay calm and focused the rest of life.
(TMI block; if you wish to avoid discussions of periods + mood swings, skip!)
I stopped my OCP (hormonal birth control) at the end of August because my migraines had been really intensifying and I wondered if it was playing a role. It turns out that YES, it was — I’ve had only one headache in the last month instead of dealing with one every 4 days or so. I was worried though because ~4 years ago when I first started the OCP, I did it mostly because I had major mood issues during the whole second half of my cycle (basically ovulation until the end of my period).
Well, I’ve survived a full cycle and honestly, I think I did much better than expected. The two things that helped me were:
- AWARENESS of the cycle and my propensity towards low moods during certain times. I could find myself sinking into negative feelings at times but knowing my moods (and irritability) were probably being influenced by my hormonal milieu actually helped provide some perspective when I needed it.
- RUNNING. Nature’s SSRI? Running — particularly at the higher mileage level I am doing right now — helps my mood and makes me calmer. I’m not saying it makes me *calm* necessarily, but it absolutely helps take the edge off. I’m sure other forms of cardio would probably be similar but the time outside feels therapeutic as well.
Obviously not trying to say these are universal fixes for everyone but I am really happy with how the last month went. NOT having frequent headaches was obviously a mood-booster in and of itself!
Also not saying I wouldn’t add additional modalities in the future if needed, including therapy or actual SSRIs (there is good evidence out there for luteal phase Zoloft). But happy with how things are so far.
Anyone have experience sending their child to an overnight camp (1-2 weeks) specifically for gymnastics or soccer? A expressed some interest in the former BUT I feel a little bit anxious about sending her to a camp that isn’t a known entity!