I’m back from a ~48 hour recording trip with Laura!
It went fast, we got a lot done (recorded/finished 5 episodes; did BLP Live Planning; did other kinds of grand scheming/discussion), and it was a nice break from reality.
AND. I am feeling a bit off. Moody. Sad. I have no objective reason for these feelings (or even a hormonal one) but here we are. Hopefully it will just pass.
Maybe seeing Vanilla Ice + Tiffany tomorrow will help (lol). I AM looking forward to wearing the jelly bracelets I ordered if nothing else.
BUT, I might take a little break from this space for a week or so. Will be back when it feels right ♥️
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This is a wonderful photo of you two!
I’m sorry you are feeling off right now. I’m wondering if it’s related to your one year anniversary of your event + diagnosis. I’ve read about grief that sometimes, the second year can prove to be more challenging to navigate than the first, for reasons such as—1) you’re sinking into the understanding that this isn’t a phase but the new reality; 2) people expect you to have “moved on” to a degree; or even if they don’t, maybe they are less aware of your continued grief and how it impacts you; 3) perhaps a disconnect for the person grieving who expected “things will be easier when it’s less fresh” when even though perhaps it’s less acute a feeling, it’s still real and deep and painful.
I’m actually not trying to be severely depressing here, I promise! This is all to say that if you feel a bit off and it’s even partially to do with the recent anniversary of your heart trauma and subsequent drastic lifestyle change, I hope you will give yourself grace. Because what you went through was a huge trauma, it has a lasting impact on your life, and it’s healthy to sit with ongoing or resurfaced grief, to wallow or at least acknowledge that, and see where it takes you.
We are all human. We all have moments of suffering. We are
United in this. And we, your readers, will be here for you when you feel yourself again enough to return to this space. In the meantime, I and (I’m sure) all of us wish you well. We’re rooting for you, Sarah. I truly believe you’ll feel yourself again, and I hope it’s soon.
Sending hugs.
Hugs, Sarah. Enjoy your concert! You deserve it. 🙂
Sending hugs, Sarah! Hope you can take some time for yourself and doing lots of things that you enjoy and bring you peace. xoxo
You are 2 Legit 2 Quit :). Hope you have a great time at the concert and some restorative time off from the blog if you need to. And hopefully this anniversary will get easier every year. We have a tough family anniversary in April, and now – three years out – it’s the first time I’m not already dreading that week.
Aw. Love the photo and glad you had a productive (and fun) getaway.
Sorry you’re feeling down… let me know if there’s anything I can do. Your weekend time is probably already accounted for but if you need an emergency Starbucks venting date, I’m nearby!!!
The concert sounds amazing, so fun and nostalgic! I hope you have a wonderful time. I also hope you are able to identify the source of the sadness and find your way past it… or find a way to make space for it in a sustainable way. <3
Vanilla Ice and Tiffany (Tiffany!!!)?!? That’s amazing. Sounds like an instant mood lifter!
yes – except that Tiffany didn’t show 🙁 🙁 no explanation given! I was sooooo mad. (Vanilla Ice did deliver . . .)
EDITED bc I found out she arrived 8 minutes late and they wouldn’t let her perform. assuming it’s true- poor tiffany! i am sad I didn’t get to see her perform.