Day 62: Sometimes You Don’t Check Off All the Boxes

And it’s okay 🙂

For the record, even though I looooove tracking things, writing things, thinking about productivity — I sometimes crave a break from . . . well, myself.

I feel really tired today. Almost like I am getting sick, but no fever or anything. I am hoping that it’s just the cumulative stress of call + a lot of work stuff + pandemic. You know, the usual.

Yesterday I did not work out, did not go outside, did not read, etc. I will say that over time I have learned to be kinder to myself when it comes to breaks. When I feel super tired, I sleep until the kids wake up. I will skip a workout (or 3). I will ask Josh to help me with bedtime (he put all 3 to bed last night). I will bring goals/to-do activities down to what is truly essential (ie, make sure kids getting basic needs fulfilled, care for patients, and make sure no GME-related disasters are occurring).

And I really think the relative rest (ie: bare bones life responsibilities without any ‘extras’) is just necessary sometimes. I always come back stronger when I periodically LET MYSELF relax and just lean into the feeling of being gentle with my own mind and body. Often one day is not enough. 2-3 days are usually perfect. My Strava records often show a completely empty week of workouts every 2-3 months among weeks of very consistent exercise.

And that is why this post is late today! Call day #5/7. So far I haven’t had to go to the hospital. We will see what unfolds.