There are 100 days left in 2020.
A year that teased us with promises of a bright and exciting future, and then smacked us into reality.
A year in which I kept switching planners, hoping each one would bring peace and calm to the chaos.
A year in which many of us spent time numbing our emotions both big and small.
My GOD, what a weird year. I’ve wished time away more times than I want to admit. Days until school start. Days until the case counts go down. Days until everyone can feel normal again.
And yet I’ve also been so lucky, with truly minimal personal impact. I still have a (very good) job. We are still saving for retirement +kids’ college + the future. Most importantly, my family and close friends have remained healthy.
I feel comfortable going places now, for the most part. I would not want to eat in an indoor restaurant and get jarred when I see someone not masking (ahem Tire place manager . . . seriously!?). But I don’t mind going to work, or the hospital. I do enjoy my newfound flexibility of working from home on most non-clinical days and hope this option remains in place even in post-pandemic times.
100 days left.
I want to spent the rest of this year with my eyes open, and I want to leave the numbing behind to the extent possible. In order to do this, I have decided to make my goal for these 100 days to leave my Instagram use largely behind.
I am setting the following rules for myself:
✅ I will allow myself up to 10 minutes of Insta between the hours of 11:30a – 1p on other weekdays (to respond to comments, if I get any!)
✅ I will not be checking Insta on weekends (and will uninstall the app on my phone every Friday & reinstall Monday to help prevent the temptation)
✅ I will dock my phone when I arrive home from work
✅ I will aim to average under 100 minutes of screen time daily (and try not to attend meetings using my phone)
I know this seems like a small thing. But I know my phone use (and social media use in particular) is producing more anxiety than it is alleviating, creating more problems than it is solving. When 2021 rolls around, I hope that I have some better habits to equip me for the next year.
Anyone is welcome to join me.